Wow… 2011 just zoomed past like this. Pretty fast somehow. Perhaps cos of the long break after A levels, and the roller coaster like Sem 1 in uni. Is time to do some reflection for 2011. HAHA. The eventful time of the year……
It was a special year to me where I start to embark on my future ‘career’ of being a teacher. Started off with an attachment at AMK primary as a teaching assistant, being called Ms Ho all around school. Really touched my hearts when I know that some of the kids are still keeping in contact with me on fb, commenting on photos and etc. Perhaps it is not exactly appropriate for teacher to be communicating with students like this but oh wells, I ain’t an official teacher now anyway. HAHA. Not to forget, my partner, Gabriel Tan!!!! HAHA…. Missing those days where we start fooling around, playing hangman during lessons! Gosh. Really made my days at amk pri a lot more entertaining and interesting!
Next, came work at the student centre. Love hate relationship with the kids, boss, but I thank God for the wonderful friends/ colleague I had over there. The kids are less well-mannered, and respect is something that is rather hard to be gain from them especially for funny teachers like me. HAHA. Totally undergo emotional turmoil that time where I kept feeling myself under so much pressure of work, worried that my boss will be so irritated with me, the kids will all boycott me and etc. Nonetheless, it was my pleasure to hear from some of them time and again, get to listen to their talks and updates. Ironic isn’t it? You can argue with them, scold them, they black face to you, purposely turn against you last time, and now, they automatically talk to you. Honestly, I missed the kids lots. Sometimes, I wish I could go back to the student centre to visit them. Well, not that it does matter a lot to them, but no matter how horrible that place used to be to me, it did gave me lots of unforgettable memories. Indeed a great way of gaining experience to be a teacher in time to come. Not forgetting the htht times with Yu Lin, Swan, and Auntie eka! Really happy to have them in my life and glad that we are still keeping in contact!!!!!! <3 you girls!!!!!
After working, here comes a month or so of break before I officially start school in uni. Lots of meetup sessions! HAHA. with all my friends and I practically spent lot of money. GOSH! however, it was great cos we had lots of fun and friendship as usual is something which I held so dear to. :):):)
Uni life was hectic, crazy, or rather insane! Was anticipating it previously because after such a long break after A levels, I cant wait to go back to school, and at least learning something. (funny how I used to wish I have long holidays and now, actually want to return to school) However, I experienced culture shock. Uni is so independent. Way to independent as compared to JC life and I had a hard time adapting to it. Oh wells. Or perhaps, I was too sheltered. HAHA. Friends wise, Im glad that I made friends during SOW, had some seniors to keep in contact and guide me, and of course, Bumblebee friends…… Seniors like Cheehung, Koontong, Billy and awesome friends like Pearly, Jocelyn and etc….. Besides, was really glad to be able to attend lectures with Judith again. Though this will never happen ever again (cos Jud is no longer going to take chem mods :( ), really enjoyed her company in sem 1. If not because of all these people’s company, life in uni would have been bitter all the way. Not to mention, Sem2 is going to be horrible. Like what Fiona always says, Ahhhhhh this is life!!!! HAHA. :(
Apart from this chain of events happening to my life in year 2011, of course, there are people who comes in and out of my life.
First of all, Classy! My bestest friend. Closest. Always htht, spend time together, eat together, study together, explore and many many many more… WAH!!!!! I missed you lots classy… HAHA. so glad I managed to skype with you and at least hear more about you. HEEHEE. Remember k! I am watching you. Winnie ah!!! LOL LOL… kidding kidding…. no matter how far she is from me, she will always be my bestest buddy! :) Though the hard truth is that she will never be back in Singapore for as long as before, we will always make the effort to contact each other! I am going to convince my mummy to let me go hk to find her with Fiona next year! 21st bdae! Wait for me! heehee….
Here comes Fiona mdm! heehee… Madam leh! Amirah loves mdm! Remember? XD We got closer this year, spending time exercising, ranting and complaining about our kids and boss at student centre/ boarding house, studying together, htht together and etc…….. Life is sour huh! haha. Really thankful to have her in my life, to listen to me, and give me a third person’s view on things. Thanks for the support. Although she always likes to say things the opposite way to me, I know the true version k! HAHA… :) <3
Last of all, hey you! I have never once mentioned you in my blog before! Thanks for coming into my life, for all the fun, pain, misery, laughter and …….. never ending patience and support for me. It wasn’t easy to go through all these. A lot of emotional roller coaster, obstacles to overcome and I believe is never ending. Nonetheless, lets just hope that we can overcome it together. Great having you with me all the time. May our quarrels end quickly and the biggest obstacle be overcome soon!
Wow!! It has been a really long time since I last blogged. Lots of things happened in the past few months and more to come in the near future I guess. Many things are way too unexpected. Within a short lifespan of one year, I experienced countless gains and losses. Think about it, it feels like I just had ballet concert with my fellow ballet babes. Well, that was like two years ago? All the pain and sorrows while rehearsing but at the same time, all the bonding time with my friends and friendships forged…. Indeed, like the theme song says “the power of the dream”. Love it.. Missed it. Missed ballet lots! :(:(:(
Next, it seems like it was just yesterday that I went on christmas celebration with classy and penny! Wow! That was last year. :/ this year, things are very different I guess. Classy is overseas and she gets to see real snow! Wow!! Its snowing! Haahaa… P.C.E all scattered. Haiz….. Missed the celebration we had last year. Best one n most enjoyable thing to do is to walk down orchard with those two lovelies!:):):)
What else? Everything seems like it just happened days ago but come on, it has been one year! Woah!!! As for the gains and losses…
Classy leaving for uk to study is definitely my no 1 loss. Haha. I lost my dearest buddy to study, to talk, to confide, to hang out with and etc… But then again, I’m so thankful that there is skype and what’s app… We can still connect with each other that way:)
Hhmmm… As for gains.. Friendships I guess. First of all, I grew closer to Fiona! Never expect that totally. It started off with us wanting to go gym to exercise together, swimming and then we started meeting each other pretty often before uni starts. Just so happen that both of us were working as teachers at student centers or rather boarding house. Same topic! Haha! We click! Yay! So happy. Now we can totally htht and the trust is Dere between us. :):):) it was such a valuable gain on my side. She always appear sarcastic on the outside but never mean things that way. Haha! Amirah loves Mdm!!!!!
Next, prolly the few broken friendships that I gained this year. Had been really bothered and upset about the lost of those friends. Well, things may not be as good as how it used to be, but I’m glad to have it back. Outings, chit chats…… All the more I should treasure them now. :)
Oh oh!!! On the sidenote! I passed my driving! Wwhheeeehooooo…. So happy!! Ultra! Heehee…. Never expect ly to be able to drive. Heehee… But sadly, my family got no car. Haiz. Haha. Really thankful to my instructor mr Ong! He was sooooo super duper nice to me on the day of the test. So happy! Not to mention, I was a bit blur and nervous at the start and kept committing mistakes that was totally out of expectation! Haha. The tester kept sighing in my car. Gosh! So worried. But yay! So happy!!! :)
Christmas mood Christmas mood! All ready for holiday at hard rock hotel with daddy mummy tomorrow! Eggcited!!!! But then again, finals results will be out tomorrow morning! Great! Death sentence before I could ever enjoy my holiday. Crossing my fingers that things won’t turn out as bad as I expected. Prepare to receive calls from moe! Wahhhh!!!!
Then again, there are so many mote things to look forward to! Crazy Christmas on wed! Yay! She said see me on wed! Omg! Totally made my day! Haha…:):):) things has been going well. I’m gonna succeed! Heehee….
Outing with Judith and joy on thurs! Woah! Had been waiting for this day for a year! Haha. Missed the one we had at the end of j1:) hope it will go on well after all the things that happened’ heehee
Sometimes I wonder how would life be like if a backspace bar ever did existed. Pretty perfect? You get to choose only the good things and backspace those bad things that happened, how nice! But unfortunately, things aren’t the case.
Bad things happened, people apologized whether it is right or wrong. There used to be a saying that when people apologise, it may not necessary mean that he/she is at fault or but rather they are putting down their pride to salvage the relationship, to settle the awkward situation between both parties. With this being said, how then will you know whose fault is it? Not that you want to be evil and starts separating the culprit from the victim, but if one keeps accepting the faults of the other and keeping quiet about it, in the long run, the relationship will definitely be strained even more, isn’t it? While one may treasure the relationship as much, I doubt it does mean any lesser to the other party. Isn’t hurtful to be kept in the dark, thinking that the other party appreciates you for guiding them and telling them where they went wrong when in actual fact, they know nuts. Is so ownself. So stupid. :(
Sorry is just one word. If you ever say it excessively, it becomes free. In the past, whenever I am scared to irritate people, even a tiny wheeny mistake, I will say sorry a million times just to ensure that the other party sense my sincerity. Then again, as time passes, it obviously isn’t the right solution. Does hearing sorry from the others make you any less upset? Isn’t the best not to even have to hear such apology? Best to avoid such awkward situation!!!!
Recently, things haven’t been really eventful except that results for mid terms are more or less out. 3/5 module results are out. And I missed skyping with classy last Sunday. :(:(:( glad to hear about it from Fiona and heard about the recent updates of her! Happy for you sister! Hehe! Enjoy yourself in uk and we MUST skype soon. No matter how busy we are, I will make time for you. Heehee…. MISS YOU MISS YOU:):):)
As for mid term results, not particularly horrible I would say. But not satisfactory either. The competition in uni is just sooooooo high. If you think 80 plus for maths is good, cos back in jc, we have never scored that high, you are prolly wrong. So many people scored either full marks or 90+. felt a bit disheartened especially since the root cause of my grade was due to carelessness. Haiz…… It is gonna cost me a lot in due time. :(:(:( oh wells, it is a sign for me to mug really hard. Motivation come to me. Haha. So what if I am being looked down upon, that I am not smart and blur. Whatever lah. Give up listening to all those comments. Hardwork is the way. I believe I can create miracle again! Haha…. Go liying!!!! Yay:):):)
Good things happening in my life. Circle line opens! Oh yay! More sleep time, faster travelling speed. So happy. Greatest benefit. Hehe. Is fast, apart from the fact that it is so crowded during peak hours… Gonna bring Jie on a circle line trip on day! :):):)
Had been missing out on a lot of fun this elearning week. Supposed to be a week filled with fun and laughter, while I take my break from the busy hectic school life. Little did I expect, I fell sick. The past four days had been horrible for me. Felt so miserable. So hard to sleep every night. I am soooooo tired, so deprived of sleep. Yet, I woke up every one two hours either to blow my nose, or to cough. Throat inflammation, cough, flu, fever, headache…… This is it. How miserable can I ever get? Totally broke my record. 4 days long of torture. And mind you, it still hasn’t ended yet. Every night when I go to bed, I hope that I will get better the next day, wish that I will be able to get on what my day well. Nothing did happened. Instead, it got worse. Now, I have no voice. One by one, my activities during this elearning week got cancelled. Tuesday, so sick that I had to give up the shopping thrill with Jocelyn and pearly. Had been anticipating it for sooooooooo long. And yes, is gone. Nvm. Couldn’t go for og dinner at Seoul gardens :( I always like group outings. And now, not that I don’t have the group, but rather, I am sick. Doesn’t really matter that much though. The following is really horrible. Wednesday! Supposed to go little Ryan’s house and give him tuition, final preparation before his maths and science exam. One year of tuition, this is it.. I had so much to do with him. But, I barely had voice. Though eventually, I was still asked to go down to have tuition with him, it totally exhausted the remaining energy I have. Now, I am totally voiceless. The two hours, was unbearable.wanted to blow my nose, but I couldn’t. I can’t spread my germs to little ryan. He is having exams. I did my very best for him. Please do me justice. Next, the most heart pain thing. I had to give up going to hard rock hotel, Sentosa to swim with Fiona Mdm!!!!!’ gosh! My long awaited day of fun. Had been yearning to go hard rock so badly. And now, I got nothing. It was only motivation during midterms. Can’t wait for this day. And now, yes. Sick! Sucks big time!:(:(:(:( Thursday, wanted to spend the whole day with my dearest mum, go shopping with her and thank her for staying by my side while I struggled hard during midterms. Instead of thanking her, I was a burden to her. She had to take care of me. Blessed to have her but felt so bad. Friday, haha. Even more joke. Supposed to have a whole day of fun, perhaps, trip to uss??!!!! Lol! Dream please. Fat hope. Impossible to go on such trip. Firstly, I have yet to recover, in fact, it worsen after tuition yesterday, and secondly, I won’t have the energy to play tomorrow. Doesn’t matter lah. Leave is cancelled anyway. There goes my elearning week. All that awaits is loads and loads of webcasts, elearning videos, tutorials and online quiz. How I wish I will be able to solve everything………:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
Oh god..Seriously. I can’t be an meaner than this. Bet that poor boy is damn upset now. Uhoh… -.-Sometimes it really frustrates me ttm. Haiz, but still, guess it was my fault to react that way I guess. Selfish me wanted things to go my way. But obviously, since I have given the promise previously, I cant back out. Plus is not right. Haiz… not right not right… But honestly, I was sooooo reluctant to give in. Cant wait to rant to them and hear them crack jokes about it.. Gonna be funny I guess. But…….. no lah.. Maybe two weeks later, after midterms perhaps? I ought to learn my lesson and not hurt that poor soul. People planned and put in so much effort (although I wasnt that excited anymore ever since last month), but still, not right…. Things have changed. Certain things have to change. Give and take I guess. :/
liying.. is time to face reality! :(:(:(:(:( is not fair!!! wahhh…… haiz haiz haiz……………… :(:(:(:(:(
“Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being a part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can’t stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship. When you’re down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend holds your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete because you need not worry. You have a forever friend, and forever has no end.”—Unknown (via cite-belle)
I miss my forever friend!!!!!:):):) all the best girl!!! Hope things will be fine for you. Mdm n I will visit you next week!
Uni life has not been smooth sailing for me at all. Lots of problems, whether is it mixing well with my oh mates or coping with studies. The pace is pretty fast. Lectures and tutorials weekly. If u ever slacken a little, u will lose track easily. The fact that uni life is so flexible that it can be quite misleading as well. You may think that you have a lot of time when actually, you don’t at all. One month plus of uni studies, and here comes mid terms. This is totally unlike any other jc exams previously. This time, I am totally clueless about my modules. I bet my friends will never believe me when I say this. To them, I used to be an ultra mugger, eager hardworking and etc. But now, I seriously beg to differ. Not to mention, I guess, some of my og mates look down on me regarding my intelligence level. Oh well. Can’t be bothered I guess. Low then low. Not something that I should try to change. All I want is just some securities…. I need a guide and be clear of the things I need to know for the various modules. One week of study leave is all I have. I am really worried and stressed up by this. Sat is my ftt and I am still confused over things like clutch pedal, accelerator pedal, brake pedal and other things. Really afraid to fail this. My instructor is assuming that I will pass my ftt. :/ scared and it just feels like a lump in my throat, so hard to swallow.
As for studies, I have no idea how to explain this, but is nothing but fear. Escape is not the way. Why am I wasting time when everyone else got down to serious mugging? The attention and commitment I gave to studies is so much little than before. Not that I don’t have the motivation, is more of me having to learn to prioritize…. Just can’t sleep but I am tired.. This feeling sucks big time… Really can’t stand it. Uni is not jc anymore. People there are smarty pants. I am nothing compared to them. :(:(:( what should I do? I wonder if one week is even enough for a miracle to happen. I need time!!!!!!!!!